I took the UE College Entrance Test today. It was fairly easy and the examinees were only required to answer it for 1 1/2 hours. And since the results were immediately released after I took the exam (although we waited for 30 minutes for the results), I already learned that I passed. It wasn't shocking (although I was grinning at the woman who told that I passed), I mean, it was easy. In short, I already expected myself to pass the test already. :))

(Can't show a pic. I didn't bring the digicam with me. >P)

Labels: college, UE

First of all, it's not anymore midnight (12 AM). But, it's merely past 12 and 10 minutes before 1. For some reasons, I still want to call this post as a midnight post (got that from midnight snack though).

Wondering why I posted? I just want to post :)) Look at this blog, it's not even updated for like...more than a month. And, it looks like it's dying as well. Dying, sheesh, it's still Halloween. Anyway, I really don't have a topic to share. Except that I super miss the apartment we are renting (since we've been staying in our own house since Thursday), and although we went there around 5 hours ago, I still miss it. It's a weird feeling if when I'm there, I'll be missing this house (which has the computer, the Internet, the TV with cable, and THE FREEDOM). But, when I'm here, I'll be missing the apartment (in which I really don't have anything except the empty laptop and my books to read). And speaking of our houses (that's how hard to have more than one house XD), I also miss our rest house, which is in Laguna. Wonder if it was flooded too. Wonder on what the caretakers did to our house, if it was flooded. Did they raise the things too? Or did they just left them like we've left them when we were there. Too bad only Mom's going there tomorrow (one of the reason why I'm still awake). HOPEFULLY OR WHATEVER, she'll take me...or us with her. Or maybe not. I want to stay here to do THE FREEDOM. Lol.

Another reason of why I'm still awake is that, like everyone says, I CANNOT SLEEP. I've actually slept...for only ten or whatever minutes. Then I woke up. It's like God woke me up (since I really wanted to pray - but I fell asleep) to pray. And, yes, I did pray. And it was longer that I expected. It was just like talking to God, but only of course, a "spiritual" talk as what I like to call it. It has been weeks, or probably during Ondoy, that I haven't have that talk with him. And, since I didn't go to hear mass (blame me for violating commandment number 2 >.>), and have only read the Gospel through the Internet (which still did not satisfy me), I just decided to pray to God. And, it did feel great praying and talking to him. And since I did it, with all the tear-jerking, I can't sleep anymore. Bah. And the last reason on why I can't sleep is it's because of my sister. She's using the laptop, and you know that laptops have lights on them that makes the room not dark but still lighted up. Hopefully, I wish she's sleeping now. And with that, I want to sleep now. Blame me for this post, I seriously just want to update this lonely blog.

Labels: currents, uncategorized

It has been more than a week since Ondoy "slaughtered" the Metro. Of course, me and my family were one of the victims.

Until today, I cannot imagine that the flood will go inside of our house. I mean, why would I think of it? Like, it was already renovated, raised up high. But then, floods do not choose what size they can be. Luckily for us, it isn't like a flash flood (like the ones that raved Marikina), but it was because of the non-stop rain. Classes is still suspended until now in our school, since most of the students' houses are still flooded (including ours). And probably, it will still be flooded after a month or so.

Right now, Mom and I rent an apartment unit, 10 minutes away from school (if there is no traffic), which is just better. And nearer to what I need and all. (XD) And, right now, I am inside a computer shop. Which again, sucks big time since the monitor makes my eyes burn. The color just sucks...meaning...it gives me a hard time to concentrate. Especially that there are other people here. (And yes, we don't have any Internet yet in the apartment - but I'm hoping we'll have one soon.)

It's been a while since I typed something in this blog. And, it's quite a short version since I'm bored and, I don't like typing in computer shops. Meh.

Labels: back to blog, boredom, flood

I really don't know what I'm doing to myself right now. Escaping from Cisco and doing non-sense blogging.

Ah, well. This is just life. I'm done with answering the questions our teacher gave us. Though, I know, some of the items are still blank. XD

About the post before? Sheesh. I was bored. I had a problem with this classmate of mine and that's why I thought of typing about that. I'm thinking of deleting it, but, I think I won't anymore. Whatever.

I must go now. My teacher might see me. Lol.

Labels: boredom, in school

For the past months, particularly on this last year of my High School, I've been undergoing pressured changes in my life. I actually hate it, but, I just can't hate it, I have to accept them.

For me to share these, I need to re-introduce myself to everyone who reads this blog. I know maybe a few, or maybe no one at all reads this blog, but, whatever. I really don't care. As long my blog understands, I'm already fine with it.

You might never thought that I am a quiet, shy, untalkative [bunny :P], unsociable, alone, has-her-own-world, and anything that has the same meaning as these words. But, when you read this blog, you probably won't see these traits from me. I must admit, I don't want to show that I am shy to others when I type something over this blog, the hell, it's a blog, a blog means an open journal. So, yes, for a thousand time, this is the only place I can share my thoughts with. I never (or seldom) share my thoughts to others personally. I only keep them in my mind and think that I can overcome those negative thoughts. It may sound weird for you people who asks help from another person but this is me. I seldom accept other people's opinions (but I know how to respect them always) and only care for myself. It may sound unfair but that's how my life works. My life as a person for another person.

Just right now, I always wanted to be alone. Walking without someone beside me and walking just by myself. But, no, I'm not emo. I hate slashing my wrist, cry like a river on the corner of a room and wearing black all the time (what's that, I'm attending a funeral? XD). I wanted to be alone because that makes myself unwind itself. I can relax by thinking good and great things that have happened to me. I can talk to myself by saying that I can do something for myself. Well, this doesn't mean that I'm going crazy or anything but being only with myself makes me feel great. That even if I don't have any accompaniment, I can still carry myself to the destination I need to go. That I don't need a person to talk to, leaving myself to do the job. That I don't need a person to share secrets or thoughts, leaving myself to the job as well. And, that I don't need a person to be with me all the time, because I know I can handle situations by myself as long as I can do it.

These may sound funny for you but it's true. Though I must admit too that I still have my friends to keep me company, but sometimes, I just need myself to do things that I don't need to share with others. Thank God I have a brain, senses, feelings to cover myself. With my brain, I can think; with my senses, I can feel the things other people are saying to me - meaning, I can correct myself whether they say bad things about me; and with my feelings, I can show if I'm fine or not to others.

No matter how people say negative things about me, I know I can still carry myself. As long as I can still believe that I can still handle these situations, I can show how great or how "useful" I am to others.

Labels: changes, fourth year, life, rants

And since September is my birthday month, I present you people Onion! (I'm not actually sure of his/her name but I think he/she is Onion :P)

Hm. I'm not back for any blog updates, but I promise to post something tomorrow or the next day or the next or whenever I'll be available again.

Labels: back to blog, layout

Dear Blog,

Alam ko na matagal mo na akong "sinasabihan" na mag-post ng isang pangyayari dito. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko siya magawa. Hindi ko magawa kasi nakakatamad, nakakaantok, at...nakakatamad (inulit ko lang. :P).

Hindi ko din magawa kasi nahihiya ako. Nahihiya? Bakit? Nahihiya kasi parang nawawala na ang gana kong maglahad ng saloobin ko. Sa dinami-dami ng problema o rason na maiibigay ko sa iyo, 'yun lang ang aking sagot.

Ilang araw bago nito, "pinaramdam" ng adviser slash Mathematics teacher namin ang magiging marka namin sa unang bahagi ng school year. Sa totoo lang, todo yung pagbigay niya ng "pasakit" sa amin eh. O siguro hindi naman lahat kami, pero karamihan sa amin, naramdaman iyon. Pasakit kasi masyado niyang ipinapakita na mababa kami sa unang bahagi. Oo, isa ako sa mga mababa...bagsak sa totoo lang. Nahihirapan akong intindihan siya. Minsan, madali siyang intindihin, minsan naman masyado siya mabilis at minsan din naman, nakakalito ang mga tinuturo niya. Sa totoo lang, dapat hindi ko ito sinasabi dahil nahihiya akong sabihing bagsak ako sa Math ngayong 4th Year na ako. Kaya nung sinabi ko ito sa aking nanay, bigla na lang bumuhos ang aking mga luha at inilahad ko sa kanya na gustong kong magpa-tutor. Hindi sa !@#$ na gurong iyon kundi sa iba o kakilala niyang makakatulong sa akin. Ilang minuto ang nakalipas nang kami ay nasa isang tutorial center na. Sa mababang lebel ako nagsisimula ngayon, at may additional tutorial ng mga kasalukuyang tinuturo sa amin.

Minsan lang akong magsabi ng masama tungkol sa guro ko. Dahil, ayoko talagang sabihin na hindi sila "karapat-dapat" na nagtuturo sa amin o sa akin. Ayoko ding magsabi ng masama dahil baka bigyan pa ako ng mas malalang marka sa susunod. Kaya nga nagpapa-tutorial ako, hindi ba? Para matuto ng mas maayos at para na rin makakuha ng mas mataas na marka.

Sa ngayon, lumuluha ang langit. Lumuluha siguro kasi karamay niya ako sa nadadama ko ngayon. Pero alam ko, na may tatlo pa akong pagkakataon, para ituwid ang aking sarili at para makaakyat ako sa entablado at para makuha ang aking kauna-unahang tropeyo sa High School - ang diploma.

Salamat muli Blog sa walang tigil na pagpapagaan ng aking damdamin, kahit na ganito, susulatan pa rin kita. Magulo lang kasi ang amo mo eh. :P

Ang Bayaning Torpe. Teka, parang ang layo ng kahulugan ng Tagalog na bersyon sa akin nito ah :))

Labels: anger, blog, fourth year, Math

I took the UE College Entrance Test today. It was fairly easy and the examinees were only required to answer it for 1 1/2 hours. And since the results were immediately released after I took the exam (although we waited for 30 minutes for the results), I already learned that I passed. It wasn't shocking (although I was grinning at the woman who told that I passed), I mean, it was easy. In short, I already expected myself to pass the test already. :))

(Can't show a pic. I didn't bring the digicam with me. >P)

Labels: college, UE

First of all, it's not anymore midnight (12 AM). But, it's merely past 12 and 10 minutes before 1. For some reasons, I still want to call this post as a midnight post (got that from midnight snack though).

Wondering why I posted? I just want to post :)) Look at this blog, it's not even updated for like...more than a month. And, it looks like it's dying as well. Dying, sheesh, it's still Halloween. Anyway, I really don't have a topic to share. Except that I super miss the apartment we are renting (since we've been staying in our own house since Thursday), and although we went there around 5 hours ago, I still miss it. It's a weird feeling if when I'm there, I'll be missing this house (which has the computer, the Internet, the TV with cable, and THE FREEDOM). But, when I'm here, I'll be missing the apartment (in which I really don't have anything except the empty laptop and my books to read). And speaking of our houses (that's how hard to have more than one house XD), I also miss our rest house, which is in Laguna. Wonder if it was flooded too. Wonder on what the caretakers did to our house, if it was flooded. Did they raise the things too? Or did they just left them like we've left them when we were there. Too bad only Mom's going there tomorrow (one of the reason why I'm still awake). HOPEFULLY OR WHATEVER, she'll take me...or us with her. Or maybe not. I want to stay here to do THE FREEDOM. Lol.

Another reason of why I'm still awake is that, like everyone says, I CANNOT SLEEP. I've actually slept...for only ten or whatever minutes. Then I woke up. It's like God woke me up (since I really wanted to pray - but I fell asleep) to pray. And, yes, I did pray. And it was longer that I expected. It was just like talking to God, but only of course, a "spiritual" talk as what I like to call it. It has been weeks, or probably during Ondoy, that I haven't have that talk with him. And, since I didn't go to hear mass (blame me for violating commandment number 2 >.>), and have only read the Gospel through the Internet (which still did not satisfy me), I just decided to pray to God. And, it did feel great praying and talking to him. And since I did it, with all the tear-jerking, I can't sleep anymore. Bah. And the last reason on why I can't sleep is it's because of my sister. She's using the laptop, and you know that laptops have lights on them that makes the room not dark but still lighted up. Hopefully, I wish she's sleeping now. And with that, I want to sleep now. Blame me for this post, I seriously just want to update this lonely blog.

Labels: currents, uncategorized

It has been more than a week since Ondoy "slaughtered" the Metro. Of course, me and my family were one of the victims.

Until today, I cannot imagine that the flood will go inside of our house. I mean, why would I think of it? Like, it was already renovated, raised up high. But then, floods do not choose what size they can be. Luckily for us, it isn't like a flash flood (like the ones that raved Marikina), but it was because of the non-stop rain. Classes is still suspended until now in our school, since most of the students' houses are still flooded (including ours). And probably, it will still be flooded after a month or so.

Right now, Mom and I rent an apartment unit, 10 minutes away from school (if there is no traffic), which is just better. And nearer to what I need and all. (XD) And, right now, I am inside a computer shop. Which again, sucks big time since the monitor makes my eyes burn. The color just sucks...meaning...it gives me a hard time to concentrate. Especially that there are other people here. (And yes, we don't have any Internet yet in the apartment - but I'm hoping we'll have one soon.)

It's been a while since I typed something in this blog. And, it's quite a short version since I'm bored and, I don't like typing in computer shops. Meh.

Labels: back to blog, boredom, flood

I really don't know what I'm doing to myself right now. Escaping from Cisco and doing non-sense blogging.

Ah, well. This is just life. I'm done with answering the questions our teacher gave us. Though, I know, some of the items are still blank. XD

About the post before? Sheesh. I was bored. I had a problem with this classmate of mine and that's why I thought of typing about that. I'm thinking of deleting it, but, I think I won't anymore. Whatever.

I must go now. My teacher might see me. Lol.

Labels: boredom, in school

For the past months, particularly on this last year of my High School, I've been undergoing pressured changes in my life. I actually hate it, but, I just can't hate it, I have to accept them.

For me to share these, I need to re-introduce myself to everyone who reads this blog. I know maybe a few, or maybe no one at all reads this blog, but, whatever. I really don't care. As long my blog understands, I'm already fine with it.

You might never thought that I am a quiet, shy, untalkative [bunny :P], unsociable, alone, has-her-own-world, and anything that has the same meaning as these words. But, when you read this blog, you probably won't see these traits from me. I must admit, I don't want to show that I am shy to others when I type something over this blog, the hell, it's a blog, a blog means an open journal. So, yes, for a thousand time, this is the only place I can share my thoughts with. I never (or seldom) share my thoughts to others personally. I only keep them in my mind and think that I can overcome those negative thoughts. It may sound weird for you people who asks help from another person but this is me. I seldom accept other people's opinions (but I know how to respect them always) and only care for myself. It may sound unfair but that's how my life works. My life as a person for another person.

Just right now, I always wanted to be alone. Walking without someone beside me and walking just by myself. But, no, I'm not emo. I hate slashing my wrist, cry like a river on the corner of a room and wearing black all the time (what's that, I'm attending a funeral? XD). I wanted to be alone because that makes myself unwind itself. I can relax by thinking good and great things that have happened to me. I can talk to myself by saying that I can do something for myself. Well, this doesn't mean that I'm going crazy or anything but being only with myself makes me feel great. That even if I don't have any accompaniment, I can still carry myself to the destination I need to go. That I don't need a person to talk to, leaving myself to do the job. That I don't need a person to share secrets or thoughts, leaving myself to the job as well. And, that I don't need a person to be with me all the time, because I know I can handle situations by myself as long as I can do it.

These may sound funny for you but it's true. Though I must admit too that I still have my friends to keep me company, but sometimes, I just need myself to do things that I don't need to share with others. Thank God I have a brain, senses, feelings to cover myself. With my brain, I can think; with my senses, I can feel the things other people are saying to me - meaning, I can correct myself whether they say bad things about me; and with my feelings, I can show if I'm fine or not to others.

No matter how people say negative things about me, I know I can still carry myself. As long as I can still believe that I can still handle these situations, I can show how great or how "useful" I am to others.

Labels: changes, fourth year, life, rants

And since September is my birthday month, I present you people Onion! (I'm not actually sure of his/her name but I think he/she is Onion :P)

Hm. I'm not back for any blog updates, but I promise to post something tomorrow or the next day or the next or whenever I'll be available again.

Labels: back to blog, layout

Dear Blog,

Alam ko na matagal mo na akong "sinasabihan" na mag-post ng isang pangyayari dito. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko siya magawa. Hindi ko magawa kasi nakakatamad, nakakaantok, at...nakakatamad (inulit ko lang. :P).

Hindi ko din magawa kasi nahihiya ako. Nahihiya? Bakit? Nahihiya kasi parang nawawala na ang gana kong maglahad ng saloobin ko. Sa dinami-dami ng problema o rason na maiibigay ko sa iyo, 'yun lang ang aking sagot.

Ilang araw bago nito, "pinaramdam" ng adviser slash Mathematics teacher namin ang magiging marka namin sa unang bahagi ng school year. Sa totoo lang, todo yung pagbigay niya ng "pasakit" sa amin eh. O siguro hindi naman lahat kami, pero karamihan sa amin, naramdaman iyon. Pasakit kasi masyado niyang ipinapakita na mababa kami sa unang bahagi. Oo, isa ako sa mga mababa...bagsak sa totoo lang. Nahihirapan akong intindihan siya. Minsan, madali siyang intindihin, minsan naman masyado siya mabilis at minsan din naman, nakakalito ang mga tinuturo niya. Sa totoo lang, dapat hindi ko ito sinasabi dahil nahihiya akong sabihing bagsak ako sa Math ngayong 4th Year na ako. Kaya nung sinabi ko ito sa aking nanay, bigla na lang bumuhos ang aking mga luha at inilahad ko sa kanya na gustong kong magpa-tutor. Hindi sa !@#$ na gurong iyon kundi sa iba o kakilala niyang makakatulong sa akin. Ilang minuto ang nakalipas nang kami ay nasa isang tutorial center na. Sa mababang lebel ako nagsisimula ngayon, at may additional tutorial ng mga kasalukuyang tinuturo sa amin.

Minsan lang akong magsabi ng masama tungkol sa guro ko. Dahil, ayoko talagang sabihin na hindi sila "karapat-dapat" na nagtuturo sa amin o sa akin. Ayoko ding magsabi ng masama dahil baka bigyan pa ako ng mas malalang marka sa susunod. Kaya nga nagpapa-tutorial ako, hindi ba? Para matuto ng mas maayos at para na rin makakuha ng mas mataas na marka.

Sa ngayon, lumuluha ang langit. Lumuluha siguro kasi karamay niya ako sa nadadama ko ngayon. Pero alam ko, na may tatlo pa akong pagkakataon, para ituwid ang aking sarili at para makaakyat ako sa entablado at para makuha ang aking kauna-unahang tropeyo sa High School - ang diploma.

Salamat muli Blog sa walang tigil na pagpapagaan ng aking damdamin, kahit na ganito, susulatan pa rin kita. Magulo lang kasi ang amo mo eh. :P

Ang Bayaning Torpe. Teka, parang ang layo ng kahulugan ng Tagalog na bersyon sa akin nito ah :))

Labels: anger, blog, fourth year, Math